Remembering (#2025)

Reflections while wandering the way of the path:

I AM that which I am. I am twia: whole, complete, perfect, eternal. Twia knows. The me of the body does not know. It only perceives separation. It does not know oneness.

Twia has no past, future, or present. Twia is, like consciousness is. To be in the moment is to be in the eternal. Time ceases in the room within. Without time, we can know our true nature, which is eternal.

There is that which I AM and nothing else. I AM the whole of the all. There are no limits to twia. Twia is movement. Twia is expressing. Twia is the dancing that is the dance. Twia is consciousness-expressing. Consciousness-expressing separation brings about existence. I AM the expressing that manifests the world. Do not underestimate the power that is twia.

Consciousness holds no evil, for there is no fear in reality. Evil is a product of fear and fear arises with the thought of separation, whose existence is illusion, like the thought of unicorns is fantasy. In fantasy, unicorns are horse-like animals bearing a single horn on their forehead. In illusion, separation is existence bearing fear from a perception of lack. None of it is real. Fear and evil require separation to exist. They are meaningless because they are illusions. The me of the body cannot choose between fear and love because its whole, brief existence is fear. Twia cannot choose between love and fear. Its reality is love. So, who holds the choice? What is there in you that can choose? That part of you is the dreamer, the one who awakens.

The dreamer is the child who grows to know the unicorn as fantasy but still holds it in heart. You can live in the dream and remember twia. This is done by holding peace of heart.

The dreamer is awareness, or that which is aware of body, me, twia, the dream – the whole of the all. The dreamer is discrete awareness that knows both separation and oneness. It chooses. But why is it made to choose? Because the thought of separation generates duality which leads to making choices. Once the choice to awaken in made, the dream is gone. Once the body dies, the me of the body is gone. To be gone is to return to possibility in the emptiness that is nowhere.

Consciousness is an eternal field of infinite possibility. It has no attributes because it cannot be compared. There is nothing else. We call it oneness only because we experience separation. Our existence is the dream of an impossibility. Separation is impossible. It is an illusion of perception. Oneness follows separation into the illusion. Together they form the dream of existence.

Dreams are not forever. They come and go. They exist without reality like a unicorn. We live in the dream of our existence as the me of the body. It experiences separation fully, like a unicorn galloping about in a child’s imagination, and it is fearful. Fear is a product of feeling cut off and alone. There is a perception of lack and the struggle to fulfill our perceived needs. This brings a bevy of emotions to the body. We struggle with fear and its emotions, but none of it is real. This is hard to understand when you are in pain and suffering. To learn this is salvation from the suffering.

Twia is real. The nature of our true being is the I AM. I AM that which I am. This is twia. Twia is the expressing of the dream. Twia is awareness. Twia knows.

I am the experiencing of the dream. I am the dreamer. I am aware of the me of the body while I am drawn to awakening in twia. I can awaken in the dream, or I can awaken altogether. Probably in that order.

This is the child growing older, giving up the fantasy of unicorns while continuing to treasure them; then, giving them up altogether. To leave the dream is to remember twia. This is the dreamer awakening. This is the way of the path.

That which chooses to awaken is the discrete awareness that is twia. I am discrete awareness. I am not the body, nor am I the me of the body. I am not Darrell. I am twia, the discrete awareness that knows. Awareness animates the dream. Discrete awareness animates Darrell. When awareness leaves the body, the body dies, and Darrell dies with the body. When awareness leaves the dream, I am fully aware of twia. I can awaken in the dream or I can leave the dream altogether, or both.

It is hard to describe these things for there is no separation. I am telling the dream from inside the dream. I do not know reality. The me that cries out exists without knowing, then dies, like the unicorn. The child’s imagination holds the unicorn. Twia holds the dreamer in its embrace. The more the dreamer yields to the embrace, the easier it is to awaken. Do not fight the dream. Live in the moment and abandon fear. This is awakening in the dream.