Ruminating with a mystic poet
What is it that you want? Call it desire. You desire that which serves your needs. Your needs are many. Satisfying them supports the survival and fulfillment of the me of the body.
Your desires fuel expectations. Whether your expectations are met or not results in pleasure and pain, happiness and sorrow. Desires keep you choosing between this and that. In other words, they separate you from the whole of the all. Instead of flowing in union with the river, you grab at this and that from along the shoreline trying to get out of the current instead of surrendering to its natural course as it carries you to the sea. You do so out of ignorance of your true nature.
Love in the world is desire. It is tainted by fear. Love acts to overcome fears of separation. To perceive separation is to feel alone and lost in ignorance and fear. Love pulls others in. Fear pushes them away. There is no fear in consciousness because there is no separation. Love without fear is joy. Joy is without desire. Joy is your true nature. To live in joy is to live in the whole of the all, which is consciousness in existence.
The energy of desire explodes endlessly in the world. You are torn between this and that. Desire separates. To want this is to reject that. There is a bond in your relations with this and that. Desire ties you to this but not that as an attachment. The me of the body cannot undo attachments without feeling loss. To feel loss is to live in pain and sorrow; then to overcome pain and sorrow, you form more attachments to this or that, which brings you pleasure and happiness for a while. It is a cycle of gain and loss, pleasure and pain, happiness and sorrow. The fear of loss binds you ever tighter to this or that. You think thoughts and the thoughts become beliefs and the beliefs become your world. You are attached to the world because you believe your perceptions of its illusion. The illusion is not real. It changes as your thoughts change. To exchange one thought for another is to alter your beliefs, which changes your illusion of the world in which you live.
Is it wrong to say that your world is an illusion when you desire so much of it, including your own existence? I do not think so. The me of the body is blind. It does not see beyond its perceptions, and it perceives separation. To enter the room within is to break the chain of perceptions. To not see the whole of the all does not mean that it is not there. Your perceptions of illusion conflict with your reality as I AM. Are these thoughts of illusion fantasy of the mind? Is there a reality beyond the me of the body and its world? I cannot tell you. The answer is your own. There are those who see through the eyes of the body and those whose vision transcends the body. Some limit consciousness to the brain, others see it as the totality of all that lies beyond comprehension. Both walk the same path, for there is no separation except in perception. In the end, all rivers reach the sea. Those that do not, at first, come to rest in dead waters. But they, too, are absorbed back into the heavens to renew again and rain into living streams.
What is hidden will be found. The light that waits in darkness shines for all who see. What you see in darkness is not the same as that which comes from the light. What you put forth in mind comes back to you in darkness or light. Send forth the light. Do not live in darkness. Abandon the way of the world with its pleasure and pain, happiness and sorrow. Your true nature lies not in ignorance and fear but in wisdom and joy.