What have you done that is worth doing? It only has worth because you say so. Giving your actions value gives meaning to your efforts. You strive, attain, and achieve to what end? To give your life meaning and purpose. Without meaning and purpose why are you here? There is no worldly answer, and there is the rub. You spend an entire life trying to find an answer where there is none.
There is no meaning or purpose to your life as the me of the body except what you give to it. The me of the body is a chance event in a random universe. Your existence is a roll of the dice in the evolution of matter from elementary particles. And, your existence is an illusion in the emptiness that is consciousness. If this is all true, why bother? Because the pleasure and pain, happiness and sorrow of existing helps you feel real and alive, and you are fearful of losing it all to death. The alternative scares you more than the situation you are in.
Your evolution has led you to the brink of awareness. You sense just enough of your true nature to want more. It is the search for more that keeps you going. First you channel the urge for more into the ways of the world. When that fails, you begin the inward journey by seeking a new path forward. The way of the path is your destination. It leads you to the door of the room within. One teacher of wisdom, Jesus of Nazareth, called the room within the kingdom. He said it was home to the Father and that all who knock shall enter the Father’s presence.
Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and the one who knocks, the door will be opened. Matthew 7:7-8
Jesus is saying that if we seek, we will find, for the Father awaits our knock at the door of the kingdom to show us the way in. Jesus uses the symbolism of knocking on a door to say that entering the kingdom is up to us. No one, not even our own true nature, can cause us to choose the ways of the kingdom over those of the world. We have both the gift of choice and the gift of grace; the rest is up to us. Do we seek gratification by clinging to the ways of the world or do we choose true fulfillment from within the kingdom? The kingdom is our awareness of the Father’s presence, which is our own true nature. Jesus says that when we become aware of this presence, we seek it. In seeking, we enter the kingdom. The door opens to our knock, and the light of wisdom pours through as we accept that the Father fulfills us, not the world.